Can I make a very honest confession today? Recently, I’ve been wishing away moments and seasons because I have my eyes set on future seasons where the grass looks greener. It’s rooted in my selfishness, and it’s sinful.
I’ve been wishing away winter because it’s uncomfortable and cold and there isn’t much to do. But if I skip winter, then I miss my three year old asking me to play outside with her and the sheer delight of catching snowflakes on our tongues.
I’ve been wishing away messes in the house because I’m tired of picking up nerf bullets or washing couch cushions that have been spilled on. But all of those are reminders that I also have the roar of laughter and play in my house every single day.
This morning on the way to school I found myself wishing I could just pick my own music in the car. But then I wouldn’t have heard my two daughters belting the Spirit soundtrack at the top of their little lungs, a sound sweet enough I could cry listening to it.
There is so much good to grasp right now, and sure, in every season, there are also some frustrations. But I’ve been convicted to try to be more present in the here and now. I’ll fail, and I’ll falter. But the Holy Spirit is with me, guiding me, and each day is a gift to either choose God’s way or Courtney’s way, and I don’t even need to tell you which of those two options is better. Sure, there will be different versions of good when the weather is a little warmer, the kids are a little older, the house a little calmer, my time a little more “mine” but our sinfulness will always find us, and I want to get to the end of this season of motherhood and say “I have no regrets because I did it to the fullest,” not “I have so many regrets because I rushed precious moments away.”
Acknowledge what is difficult in this present season, and then ask God to shift your perspective to live life RIGHT NOW to the very fullest.
“Not that I speak from want, for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am.” Philippians 4:11
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